EXAMPLES slipped on the carpet at the turn of the stairs down! fast surprise--reached out a hand and did brake myself though the weight of my body stretched upper arm shoulder and right side of my chest painfully--but I was safe! just like a few days later waking too early in the dark started a fire made coffee read book waited for early morning news stretched out on sofa but no luck! nothing made me either fully awake or tired enough to sleep again the dawn was delayed stars stayed bright seemed the sky just got blacker news passed coffee drunk book still in front of me then surprise I fell asleep 10 a.m. first nap of the day so sweet to be unconscious and rest while everyone else was showing energy scuttling about at their jobs and making choices and all or the last couple of days somehow twice it was appropriate to tell the story about the only thing about his fatal diagnosis that made my father mad he'd just bought a new pair of dress shoes and surprise! you've got liver cancer makes me so mad I paid ninety dollars for those shoes and only wore them twice